“It’s like, it doesn’t honor God to pretend like everything is OK. That’s the beauty of Jesus that so many people miss. The beauty is that he died on the cross for our sins, but also that he existed the way we exist. He understands what it’s like to lose a friend. He’s not unfamiliar with those emotions. He’s not unfamiliar with the difficulty of human life. To me that’s what makes Jesus as God beautiful. He totally understands. He went out of his way to prove to us that he understands our situation. So when he has something to say, it’s not coming from this high and lofty standpoint. It’s coming from this person who understands intricately the perils of human existence.”—
I’m really tired, from trying so hard to ignore the negative comments and discouragements I’ve been getting. Because I’ve been so discouraged, I can’t seem to differentiate a joke from what someone really thinks, and I’m just taking them in negatively. I hate it, I hate it when I’m negative because it’s so tiring.
I’m so tired
There are so many things I want to talk to you about. I usually confide in you in these things and you give me great advice. But I think now, God wants me to turn to Him instead, to pray and to ask Him for guidance in these issues. Maybe when I finally learn how to rely wholly on Him, will things be better again.
“I have so much to say to you.
I want to begin at the beginning, because that is what you deserve.
I want to tell you everything, without leaving out a single detail. But where is the beginning?
And what is everything?”—Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close (via kvtes)